Bradley,

Why would you leave me here alone and afraid? You promised to be by my side for the rest of my life. Through the good and the bad.How could you think that I would be ok with out you? Why would you let me hurt so badly? How dare you leave me here by myself? Why couldnt I have gone with you? How do you expect me to survive Brad? Why? Why would you let this happen? Why would you leave me here baby why? Didnt you know I need you? Didnt you know how much I depended on you. You did, you knew because I told you constantly. I told you you were my everything, my best friend, my partner in crime. I told you that I never wanted anyone else besides you. I told you to be careful, to come home to me...to come home to Chloe. You didnt listen to me...Why? Why couldnt you have just listened... why couldnt you have just come home alive? I dont want to do this with out you brad. I dont want to be a single mom. I dont want to have to provide. I dont want to have to be the only one Chloe can rely on. You were suposed to be here. You were suposed to grow old with me. Now its only me who will grow old. Its only me who will tell chloe no. Its only me that has to live with missing you. Im so mad at you. I am hurting for you so much. I miss you. I love you. I just want you to come home and hold me in your arms and tell me everything will be ok. But you cant. It wont be ok. You being dead will never be ok. I will never be ok...